My Own World

update 2012.

2012-02-06T19:13:00.001+08:00

so when was the last time I update this blog of mine? last year I think. sorry for the lack of update. oh well, I don't think there's anyone reading this dead blog of mine. or there.....?

anyway, it's the new year, year of 2012. in a months time, I'll be sitting for my final year exam and then I'll be in year 2 for higher nitec. time flies so fast, if you realised it.

& in 2012, I've promised myself to stay positive all the time. just like my mug, that I own it. enough of heartbreaks that I had in 2011. Insya-Allah, 2012 will be a blessful year. well, it depends on how I make use of it.

all right. just updating for the sake of updating? hehe! I'll see ya soon bloggy! <3

december.

2011-12-14T23:32:00.001+08:00

hey. hi. hello.

just so you know, it's already the month of December. how time flies so fast. yeps, it's also my holiday period now, one month of holiday. probably a lil bit of rotting at home, since I've got revisions to do as I really need to buck up on my studies. trust me, I can see myself getting lost interest in my studies for this semester. what's more, there's test on the first week once school starts. oh boy~ BUCK UP!

other than that, 2011 is coming to an end soon & another year is coming to our life , 2012. Insya-Allah, it'll be perfectly fine. I don't have regrets in 2011 instead I felt thankful in 2011.

firstly, I got to continue my studies. Alhamdullilah, thanks to mum's support. secondly, I met awesome & crazy classmates. & lastly, I have my love ones by my side.

Alhamdullilah for all this. Why should I ask for more?

though at times, I was feeling heartbroken over & over again but hey, that's just a test from Him. Insya-Allah, everything will be, well not perfectly fine, but just fine.

I wish you guys a bless year ahead.

xoxo.

19TH.

2011-11-20T20:02:00.003+08:00

Just so you know, I've turned 19 last Friday. Alhamdullilah. Another year of living. Thanks to those who wishes in whatever ways. Thanks to Allah, for giving me another chance of living. & thanks to my parents for bringing me up for 19 years despite my with my rebellious attitude, especially my mother :')

Since it falls on school days, nothing much were being done. Normal lesson and laughter and jokes. Oh, was really being bullied by Wee. Pfft. Nevermind, her birthday is just near anyway, revenge time! Nyehehe! Anyway, I received a book, not just any other book, but a red book by Wee with the help of Fara and Hilme. In the book, there's motivation quotes for me to boost up with my life. They know how sucky my life have been this few days. Other than motivation quotes, there's photos in there too. Hah, I really can't stop smiling when I went through those pictures. To be honest, I really cried when I read carefully the book, for the second time. like I said "the quotes made me cry but the pictures made me smile." & everytime, I came across the red book, I'll smile to myself. Thank you so much guys, especially Wee. <3

In day celebrated with awesome/crazy friends & at night, celebrated with family. First Sis treated to KFC and Second Sis came back with some goodies/junk food from her workplace. You know what it means? FOOOOOOOD! Uh huh, I love food! Especially, when someone treats me :D

All right, I think I'm done with updating this blog. It's alive, right right right? Heh.

xoxo.

NOVEMBER

2011-11-02T21:49:00.001+08:00

October had passed and November have come. Another one more month & it's the end of the year 2011. Insya-Allah. My November wish shall be - I don't want to be sad anymore. I'm so tired of being sad and moody on some days. Just the same shit but different days. November shall be the month of healing and happy for me. Insya-Allah.

Uh huh another reason for me to be happy is because November is my month. Yeah, another year older. Hehe.

School have been as usual for me. New semester and new module for me. I've got this feeling that I can't make it thru for this new module. I know I shouldn't be having this kind thought. Okay okay. I won't think negative. Insya-Allah, I can make it. Another two years & I'm done with schooling. Insya-Allah I'll make it to poly. Parents have already having hopes for me to get into poly.

Other than that, I have crazy friends by my side & everyday there's always crazy things happening without fail. Though at times I feel sad/moody but I've got to admit it that they still make me smile.

oh ya, I really should make the effort of making this blog alive aye. wait wait, I shall say - whenever there's occasion, I shall update it. how's that? other than making my Twitter and Tumblr alive, so why not making my blog alive eh.

To end this blog post, I shall wish my readers Happy November <3

BACK!

2011-10-19T09:21:00.001+08:00

I'm back at blogging since like finally, there's an app on ipod for blogger! so yeah, gonna update what I can update. Hehe!

Anyway, it's already the second semester for me in school. how time flies fast eh. & it's already been like six months since I've been befriending with my classmate. we have a very close bonding with each other. oh, if you're wondering results for semester one, oh well, I just made it to the border line pass & I'm not gonna stop there. I've three more exams to take & I'm gonna work hard for it. H.Nitec is my last straw for me to get into poly. Insya-Allah.

Life have been a crazy ride for me. at times, you may see me happy & at times, you may see me sad. me myself have no idea why? bipolar? I guess so?

all right. this is just the intro of welcoming me back to blogging. Hehe.

updates.

2011-06-05T17:41:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lag of updates for my blog. I guess, it's been more than a month that I left my blogspot dead.

Wondering, how's my life have been? Life have been good. School have been manageable, so far.

Let's talk about my school, shall we? Heh.

After three weeks of being together with QC1104D, seven students from my class, including me, were then being transferred to QC1104C. Up till now, it's still hard for me to explain why we're being transferred. I was broken-hearted, like seriously. You know that feeling, when you already have made new friends then, getting know that you have to transfer & you have to make new friends again? I was feeling that way! Seriously!

So then, on the first day of being transferred, we mind our own business. Not mixing with the other students. Two to three days, after that, we're getting closer with each other. They're really, really funny plus super active! Oh, they're cute too. Let it be Chinese or Malay :D & yeah, to be honest, they'll never fail to make me laugh everyday, just like back in DAVP days. Aww, I miss my DAVP mates :(

So, anyway, transferred of class means also a change of subject. Aiya, have to buy new books. I'm getting used to the new subjects already. I'm glad that, I have friends that will be able to guide in the modules that seems new to me (:

One month had passed befriending with them & it seems like more than a month. Okay crap! Hahaha. I'm just wishing that, there won't be any tiff like what I had to gone through back in Nitec days *touch wood*

Ever since, I started my Higher Nitec, I've been doing my revision every weekends, without fail. Alhamdullilah. I don't want to slack or be lazy this time. No time to play around. Like what one of my lecturer told, this is my last ticket! & I'm gonna make use of it instead of letting it go waste!

All right, I think, I'v updated what I feel like updating. Heh. May no be active like how I used to. Only Twitter, am active.

<3 <3

BACK-2-SCHOOL.

2011-04-16T17:47:00.003+08:00

Just so you know, I'm back to school for the past five days. Uh huh, back to College West there but with different classmates, circles of friends, close-buddy, class advisor and bla. Easy say, same environment, different people. I'm still trying to getting used to those changes. Oh, forgot to mention that I'm learning Electronic Engineering. I know, it's a big jump from my Nitec to H.Nitec. But, I don't mind cause for me, it's was they say - learning something new. Syafs is in the same school with me, H.Nitec too but she's under Electrical Engineering. No worries, we've been keeping up with each other ever since school starts. Only for the mean time, if happen to meet, probably will be when CCA. Classmates, so far so good. Been making friends with five to six of them. Still taking it slow to know my classmates (:

Why I took up Engineering? From what my CA & other lectures said, it's easy to get a job cause engineering is everywhere. Insya-allah, I'll be able to cope with the new modules & subjects. There's Maths & Physics to learn which reminds me back in secondary school days. Told my friend that, I need tuition back. Hah. Probably, I need help with those who had studied in their Nitec for some help.

For the next two years of schooling, it's gonna be a change for me. I'll be joining CCA, still considering what CCA to choose from, just to gain my GPA points. Unlike during Nitec days, too busy to have CCA.

Okay, I think, I've done much of updating about my school. Wish me luck for school (:

updates.

2011-03-20T15:33:00.003+08:00

It's been one month since I left this blog dead. To be honest, I really have no idea what to update about ever since I'm not schooling. Trust me, my Tumblr was dead too. The only thing that is not dead, is my twitter. Totally alive there. Hah.

So anyway, I'm just gonna update whatever I could remember that had happened.

Went out with bestf to Manhanttan Fish Market. Too bad, Marly can't make it. Next time, you must make it. Heh. We did had long catch-ups, gossiping etc. It's been sometimes, since we had this time ever since we've graduated. Well, they're most working now while me, waiting for school. Will post about it at later part. We need to have this kind of outing more often.

MOVING ON!

19th March- Like what Mr Chee Kan promised, his treat to pizza for us. And yeah, it turns out to be fine except that sad thing, some can't make it. It cost us a bomb but ehem, see lah who's treating us. Haha. Nah, we're not taking advantange of him, just missed everyone. Chey~ But seriously. We had stories exchange and of course, talking about schooling life. I wondered what's gonna happen after this? Will we be the same like how we used to be? Hmm.. Let GOD decide. Shall make another event/outing where everyone must attend. Hee.

Okay, now about my life. JPAE's result were unsuccessful, but it's okay. I'm accepting the fact already. Good thing, I applied for H.Nitec earlier on and Alhamdullilah, it was successful. Been saying to myself that maybe my future ain't to production but more to engineering. Insya-allah. I'll be back in College West in April. Same environment, different friends. Insya-allah, I'll be fine in my new course with new friends.

Thanks to Mum even though she's been nagging at me for school and that, but I know, she just wants the best for me. ((':

I'm done editing. Insya-allah, I'll be back for my post.

p/s: wondering how I've been doing, just check me out at Twitter (:

grad day.

2011-02-18T09:59:00.003+08:00

Graduation day had passed for the last two days. It wasn't that grad as what I thought. Haha. From my class, a few only turns up maybe less than 15 or so? Unlike the other class, many did turn up. So, whatever it is, everything ended early as we thought. Wanted to have our brunch, but as usually, Matrix was crowded with people and so, we have to wait for lesser people. Talked about our plans and studies. Many did applied for poly. Just wishing them, all the best. For me, I've got H.Nitec, with the course that has no related with my Nitec, but it's okay. Learning something new. I'm still hoping for to get through poly. Insya-allah.

Somehow, school feels so different. Maybe cause new looks, newbies and erm, no more inspiration? Maybe eh.

Anyway, I'm not working as in proper jobs but I'm taking care of my little cousin. Fetching and sending them to school. At least, I'm not rotting at my home but I'm rotting at my granny's house. Haha. Get paid also okay. Oh, not to forget, giving part-time to tuition at night. Alhamdullilah, money is in ((:

Okay, my lappy's gonna die soon. I didn't bring along my charger currently at granny house.

p/s: no more next time.

SPEAK NOW.

2011-02-10T20:35:00.002+08:00

Just so you know, I went for Taylor Swift's Speak Now tour at Singapore Indoor Stadium yesterday! One word to describe the concert ; FANTABULOUS! Seriously, & I have no idea why, I felt like bursting into tears when she sang Sparks Fly as the intro. Probably, because that song was my message tone. Heh. I kept getting goosebumps.

I'm so glad that I memorize all of her song's lyrics, well except for some. Haha. She sang, Sparks Fly, Back To December, Fifteen, Better Than Revenge, You Belong With Me, Enchanted, Speak Now, Fearless, Dear John, Long Live, The Story Of Us, Mine and Love Story. Thirteen is indeed her favourite number 9+2+1+1=13. See?

Ohh, even though we didn't manage to get the closest seats to get the clear view of her, she is indeed GORGEOUS! So sexy, you know! Since, this is the first Speak Now concert, she was jumping all around happily and was impressed with the fans that came for her concert. Even I was impressed ((: Anyway, didn't manage to snap photos cause somehow, camera died halfway. But good thing, I've recorded some videos using my phone.

I guess, I'm still having Taylor Swift fever now. Haha. Next concert, JYJ? Hmm.. Insya-allah((: I've not been on my lappy ever since I have to daycare. Good thing, there's iPod. And as usual, I'm really really active on Twitter. Heh.

first February.

2011-02-01T17:52:00.003+08:00

Just so you know, February is here. Somewhat, I realized the month of January kind of ends late. Hehe.

Anyway, I know, this blog is dead. Pardon me. Let me guess, no one have been coming to my blog ever since it's dead? Haha. Nah, not sad. In fact, I really have no idea what to update in this blog. Like I said before, I'm more active in twitter rather than here. Trust me, even my Tumblr is dead.

Plans are up for this month. Graduation, school results and oh, not forgetting, Taylor Swift concert. Uh huh, I'm going for it. Remember, First Sis bought for me her concert ticket as my 18th birthday. Hehe. It's just next week, though. Yes, I can't wait for it!

I don't know why but I can't wait to do a lil bit of shopping ever since 'pay' is in. You know what it means? Gonna buy my wants instead of my needs. Haha. Hey, it's been sometimes okay for these days to come.

All righty, just a short post will do. Toodles~

updating.

2011-01-14T14:21:00.003+08:00

So, tell me, for how long I've not been updating this dead blog of mine? Probably, more than a week? Yeah, should be. Seriously, I have no idea what to update here. Even my Tumblr were dead. The only thing that is not dead in my social like is Twitter. Uh huh, I'm more alive there! Facebook, MSN is getting really boring as days past by, if you're having a life like mine now. Tsk. I've been rotting for one month. I've been looking for jobs here and there but yet there are still no phone calls. I envy my friends that are working now, well at least, they are not rotting at home. Waking up and doing housework is my morning chores, unlike those days when I have to wake up early and go for school. Speaking of which, I miss school, DAVPs :(

Speaking about school, I've applied for H.Nitec which has really no link to Nitec course. And, I really not interested in. Frankly speaking, I don't even want it to be chosen. But even if does, I've got no choice but to accept. Who knows, I might be interested in it after a few months. On the other hand, I'm trying to apply for poly to pursue my Diploma. Insya-allah. Even if I get school, I'll be starting in April and just imagine, me sitting at home for the next two months. No way! Hahaha!

Okay, wow, at least I'm updating this blog. Haha.

p/s: I'm more active in Twitter.

two oh eleven.

2011-01-01T16:08:00.003+08:00

Just so you know, it's the New Year already. 2011 is here. People are excited about this year, and I have no idea why? Anyway, may this year, have a beautiful memories just like any other year, okay. Insya-allah. Let me type down those sweet memories, I had in 2010. Nah, not for bitter.

working for YOG.
meeting CCK, chey~
knowing Nurul and those cute aunts and uncles.
getting mini gadgets for myself.
meeting back my primary school.
oh, being in the new school environment.
went for JYJ's showcase! (BLAST)

I guess, that's it? Can't remember it. Hehe. But, the most saddest and painful is separating with DAVPs. Aww.. Okay, better not start with my emotional post.

Just so you know, results were out yesterday. Don't bother asking how was it. No ups, no downs. Now, I'm feeling quite worried about my future. Mum have been asking what I'm gonna do after results. Gah~ I just don't know what to answer. Sigh. I've been looking for jobs but fail! Pfft. I guess, I'll be rotting like this till... Idk?

All righty, have an eventful 2011 okay people!

updates.

2010-12-19T15:48:00.002+08:00

I have no idea what to update here, just gonna keep my blog alive. Heh.

I know this is an overdue update. But anyway, went to catch Hello Stranger with gfs last Wednesday. Just a little bit of catch ups we had. Will have a proper one, the next time round. I'll rank the movie 10 out of 10. It was really worth your money, you know. A romantic comedy movie. Just make sure, you don't burst into tears half-way through it. And you guys will be saying "uhhhh?" with lots of question marks around your head, when it comes to the ending. Well, that's what happened to us. Haha.

So, it's been two weeks ever since holiday and I've been rotting. There's nothing to do at home. Just the usual routine, house chores that needs to be done. Buh~ Just wanna work, you see. But then, just lazy to find work. Haha. Lazy me, I know. Any jobs, tell me ya.

Apart from that, 2010 is coming to an end in how days time, which this reminds me of Twinny's birthday and also results day. GAH! So, enjoy your last moments of 2010, while you still can people! You'll never how 2011 gonna be like.

p/s: time flies and it's been two years.

family outing.

2010-12-12T21:12:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, Mum's side outing at Sembawang Park. My day were awesome, seriously. With kiddos and aunts and uncles. Wah, I really love it! Oh oh, Singapore gotta be a small country, cause I met Dexter there & our hut were just beside each other. JYJ was him and now outing. Haha! Small world~ Was playing hide-and-seek with him. Kekeke~

It's been sometimes we had an outing. The last time, I could remember was last year at ECP. Sharing jokes with each other. Like what, Bik Jun said "haha hehe huhu,makan." Well, exactly, after we're tired from laughing and all, we'll be hunting for food. && there were so many food, and I have no idea where to start. But BBQ Chicken is a MUST! :D Too many funny things happened that I can't recall.

(saying goodbye)

Aunt A to Aunt B : annyeonghi gaseyo.

Aunt B : uhhh.. hik hok!

Us : HAHAHA!

Anyways, photos are up on FB. Don't mind with those epic shots.

I need to find job, like seriously. I don't want to rot at home. Apart from that, I'm really worry for my results which is at the end of the month. Pfft. Why make us so long to wait? Sigh. I'm just wishing that it's gonna be a good news for us. Insya-allah.

To be honest, this update takes me one hour cause I have no idea what to update. Haha.

p/s: pissed with you.

two years.

2010-12-07T20:57:00.002+08:00

Today marks the last day of school, last day of exam and last day of everything. For the exam paper, I'm just relying on my MCQ cause I have no hope for my short-answer question. Like seriously. Maths problems pop out & just so you know, Maths was never my favorite subject. Hee.
Right after that, had lunch with mates. We conquered the whole line of table. Open table, chey~ We then started to think our future. Asking here and there, where we'll be going after graduate. The thought of it, really makes me wonder. Well, some wants to continue study, working, NS. Whatever it is, I'll be praying for their best.
Come, let's get emotional now.
Dear QV0901M,
You guys have been a great classmate to me. Those two years journey with you people, am going to treasure and remember it. Just by looking back at those photos that we took, can really make me smile and it feels like it happened yesterday. Two years flies so fast and we'll be graduating soon. Each and everyone of us are going on our separate ways now. Some may continue with their studies while some will be serving their NS or probably working. Be happy with your decision. We probably will be meeting on the graduation day itself, which I have no idea when. BUT, that won't be the last time, we shall make a meet up more often for catch-up.
Syafs & Fara, they have been by my side throughout my ITE journey. Even though we have misunderstanding between each other, yet we stay strong till the end. Thanks for the friendship.
THANKS EVERYONE <3
Oh, why I sound so emotional liao? I wasn't like this back in secondary school but why at ITE eh? Hmm. Maybe, there's more to friendship in ITE rather than secondary which is all about relationship >.<
Okay-okay, I shall end my post now and go one corner and cry. Chey~ I'm not like that eh! Hehe.
p/s: no more eye-candy :(

it's December.

2010-12-02T20:48:00.002+08:00

So then, it was the month of December. Time flies so fast and I'm graduating soon. Exams will be in a few days time. Please, make it easy so that we can score easily (:

Presentation on Tuesday was sucky. Like seriously. Wanna know what exactly happened, you can visit Syafs's blog. Oh wait, there's no link to her blog here. Hmm.. Forget it. It was really, sucky to the max. I feel like breaking down once I heard those heartless comments from the judges. You would understand why it turns out that way, if you had read our logbook and the reflection. You don't have to act sarcastic with your comments. Even if it was really that bad, well at least, you should have put in a good way. & you, you were smiling away, cause why? Cause it was your first time seeing the big effort that the four of us had put in for that ~~stupid~~ film of yours. And why, were you taking a few steps backwards once the film has ended? Speechless to it when being asked by the judges? Oh crap, thank you isn't enough! & why are you saying 'thanks' after the presentation? Why not, after the shooting and all? Buh~ Tell you what, if I were to write a story about you, even a hundred pages ain't enough! Sorry for the suck up face and thanks to the people who trying to console me, especially Edwin sayang. Hehe.

Thanks Syafs for the background design. Thanks Farah for making the poster and thanks Esther for doing the first few editing. Without these people, your film is really nothing!

Sorry for all that. Anyway, went to watch movie with Afeeqa just now. Like finally, get to watch Harry Potter. Did lots of storytelling with her. Thanks for the movie treats. Next, Rapunzel. Anyone? Heh.

Oh-oh, bbyboy reaching tomorrow, sadly won't be seeing them. Especially, Bie! Boo~ Nevermind, maybe it's just not our time yet. Chey~

I've been expressing my feelings at Tumblr. Find me if you can :D

p/s: I like you. I like your friend too.

updates.

2010-11-26T20:24:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates here. Been busy. Like always.

Anyway, my last four days was spend splendid well in school. Eversince, both M & N class were combined, I can't stop smiling and laughing each time. The bonding... chey~ Haha. Projects and presentation, are just nice. See, told ya that those hard-work will pay off ^ ^ Final presentation will be on Tuesday, which this means, four days of no schooling. Another re-printing poster and for merchandising, out tomorrow.

I've been feeling sick for the past few days, but yet I'm trying to be strong. Ohh~ Will be graduating soon in like how many days time. Sad, sad. I wonder how everyone will be like once we've graduated. I've plan to take up for any design school. Insya-allah. Or maybe, just a bit of side-track to the course that I'm learning now. Whatever it is, I still have to continue my studies.

To Afeeqaa, sorry for the last minute changes of movie dates. Thanks for understanding. Really, really promise to catch up with you, once I'm well <3 See, I have a sweet, understanding, tall girlfriend. Haha!

p/s: when our eyes met.

presentation.

2010-11-22T01:06:00.003+08:00

Presentation later on in school. I'm gonna have those look that JYJ had (pointing above). I'm just gonna keep mum.

18 on the 18.

2010-11-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

& so, I've turned legal 18 on the 18. Alhamdullilah, I thanked Allah for another years of living. Thanks to those who wished me, let it be in advance or what via SMS, calls, FB, Twitter, MSN or face-to-face, I really appreciate it. Thanks Marly, for the balloons(above). Sorry to Daan and Feeqa cause have to last minute, cancel our plans due to my school projects. Next time, I promise. Once I'm done with my submission and all. Yeah, even though this year, wasn't that 'happening' like last year, I still enjoy my day with all those laughter, arguement 'happening' in class (: Yesterday, was celebrated with cousins.

Okay, anyway, FYP video is finally done! Like, finally! Alhamdullilah. Psst, if I were you, I would say 'thanks' to my crew member. Thanks, for the hard-work, people. Let's hope for the best, shall we? Presentation is next week. Oh God! Hmm.

Oh, to Marly, thanks eh for the sweet post especially for me at your blog. Love you lah! <3

Okay-okay, enough about my eighteenth birthday. Once again, thanks okay people! <3

p/s: I've been thinking about you lately.

these days.

2010-11-12T22:33:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't be updating my blog but doing paperwork instead. Nevermind, shall start doing it once I'm done updating just a short post.

Anyway, these days, have been rushing and busy week for us. Projects, paperworks, datedue is everywhere. Less than five days, submission dates. Not forgetting, presentation after that. Been surveying here and there, coming back home late. Even parents are sick and tired of the same old thing that's happening. Sleepless night plus panda eyes. Tsk. Once, submission and presentation is over, I'm gonna work! Yes, work! Earn money, at least, I won't be rotting at home doing nothing.

18 on the 18 in how many days time. Don't care lah. Will be busy, for sure on that day.

Byessss!

p/s: you're pushing everything to us.

so little time, so much to do.

2010-11-05T16:38:00.002+08:00

It's gonna be a busy week for me starting of next week. Wait, starting from this week, I guess? Submission is just ten days away, excluding the weekends and we're still editing the video. Poster and merchandise are still planning and it seems like it's only the four of us are busy with it. Tsk. Whatever~ Then again, doing the sound effects and background music, was indeed fun. You'll see me laughing and smiling to myself :)

I don't care about turning 18 on the 18, cause I'm just hoping that everything will be settle by the 19 - submission date! NOOOO! Have to finish up everything up in that shortest time.

Oh-oh, and somewhat, a 'dream' came true for us. I know, they know. But, at least, you should have at least apologise to us. With all those bad-mouthing, you think, we can just forget it just like that? No, we won't! And yes, I'm not afraid to act sarcastically, infront of you. I'm gonna make you feel guilty!

Sorry for that. Oh, Alhamdullillah, Nadia was discharged from hospital yesterday. Take good care of yourself hor! :D

I've realised that most of secondary mates, are attached. Jealous. Whatever lah. Single is better!

p/s: karma do happens.

tired.

2010-10-29T23:00:00.002+08:00

I've been feeling tired for the four days of schooling, seriously. Been coming home at night. Projects need to be done by this week, supposingly but somewhat, is dragged till next week. My God! Hopefully, will be able to complete it. Just do it!

I'm gonna spend my whole weekends, doing my 3D work - eyes glued on screen! Buh~

Anyway, a very close classmate of mine, Nadiana, have been admitted to hospital ICU since Tuesday. Her condition were undescibable when we visited her on Wednesday. Tears just won't stop flowing once seeing her condition. Have been visited her ever since she has been admitted. Alhamdullilah, she's getting better now. Let's all pray for her wellness. Amin.

p/s: you used to bad-mouthed about us. dont you remember?

I can soar.

2010-10-22T14:04:00.004+08:00

Another week of school. It's always been disaster whenever thinking back about FYP. Just imagine, 16 more days, minus off weekends, till the date due - next month. & just imagine, we've yet to settle the problems we've been having before the holidays, during the holidays and holidays end. The situation is always the same. Buh~ Whose right, whose wrong, only God knows.

Other than that, in about 5 weeks time, I'll be graduating. Oh me gosh! Seriously, I have no idea, when I'll be going next. The main thing, I'll have to continue no matter what. I'm hoping for Higher Nitec, Insya-allah (:

All right, as usual. This blog gonna be dead until the end of the week, which I'll be updating. Heh. More to Tumblr. Booyah~ Randomly, I miss my secondary friends!

p/s: same shits, but different day.

always keep the faith.

2010-10-17T16:53:00.002+08:00

I was out yesterday to meet the JYJ! Hello, it's JYJ! Who's not exicted?! Went with First Sis, well, it's her Yoochun! JYJ Showcase were held at Singapore Expo. I won't elaborate what happened in between. Couldn't be bothered with the management.

Anyway, the showcase were powersome! Finally, get to see Junsu (the cute face), Yoochun (erm, his eyeliner, freaks me out), Jaejoong (it turns out he's shy yesterday. LOL!) What a memorial night, even though it was a short showcase, but yet I still enjoyed it. Oh, made an Indonesian friend. Haha. Sadly, we weren't allowed to take pictures or videos in there. Pathetic. No worries, I had them in my mind! Chey~

All right, next up, SS3. Who's in? ^ ^

p/s: keep in mind that I love you <3

all excited.

2010-10-15T15:34:00.003+08:00

Am all excited for tomorrow! See you tomorrow trios♥

living in fantasy.

2010-10-10T16:27:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I just wish this whole life of mine is just somekind of stories you watched in dramas or story books. Where, you'll know the ending, who's appearing in your life and how's the storyline will be. I just wish everything is just a dream. You know, the feeling, of when you woke up from your sleep, everything is being solve OR you lose your memories. How great can it be? I have no idea how's my life gonna be like in the future. I really have no idea, how's my studies will be like seeing my FYP, is left stranded during the holidays. Mum have been pursuing me to continue study, let the fee be expensive, the matter is I continue studying rather than working. I don't wish to let her down. Which children would want to see their parents upset?

On the other hand, I believe that everything happens with a reason. Be it a good thing or a bad thing. It has reasons behind. I'll always remember. I'll always remember that Allah have prepare something special for me in this whole life of journey of mine.

Insya-allah (:

Insya-Allah.

2010-10-08T13:16:00.002+08:00

I want to achieve ;

- to graduate with good marks.
- to continue study and not working.
- to take up driving license.
- to never have the feeling of lazy to pray.
- to read Al-Quran more often.

Insya-Allah!

hello.

2010-10-08T00:48:00.002+08:00

Hello. It's almost one in the morning & I'm still awake. Chatting with Azemir.

p/s: I always have problems sleeping at night esp when its school holidays. Wonder how it's like once school re-opens.

October.

2010-10-01T14:09:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates here. Been busy. Yeah right~

So, it's the first month of October. September past that fast, aint it? Anyway, hoping that October wont be sucky like September. *cross-finger*

Just so you know, holiday started already & and I'm rotting at home with lappy. Hah. Nothing's been done about FYP. I'm just hoping, there'll be solution to it. Can't keep it silent.

Anyway, yesterday, had dinner with Edwin, Esther, Fara and not forgetting Valerie. Firstly, she's really preetay! Despite her age, I really envy her! ^ ^ Thanks for the dinner treat! She gave us good advices about our future. But seriously, thinking back, I have no idea where I can head to once I graduate, which is about 10 weeks from now. I'm just hoping for a bright future. But, whats a bright future if there's no effort, right?

Oh-oh, if you realised, I didn't put my tagboard cause, once this blog is dead, there'll be ads tagging instead -__-

Till here. Once again, sorry for the lack of updates.

2010-09-25T21:29:00.002+08:00

These days~

2010-09-25T00:12:00.002+08:00

It's been a disaster the whole of this week. Pardon me if I've been updating my blog or twitter with full of anger. I'm just too tired to entertain people's stubborness and attitude. Okay whatever!

Right now, two weeks of holidays has began and I don't think I'm gonna enjoy it after what happened. All I want is to have a piece of mind during this two weeks and I guess, it's gone just like that. I'm gonna spend my two weeks catching up some kpop thingy and movies too. Hee. Nah, I don't want to think about school. I don't care about it anymore. There's no hope, seriously!

Anyone wants to ask me out? Someone who is willing to hear my problems? Hee.

p/s: I will always have the thought that He is always with me.

I DO BELIEVE!

2010-09-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

KARMA DO HAPPENS!

2010-09-22T18:15:00.002+08:00

Who's changing now? It just you or me? Stop putting the blame on others. You yourself should have a self-reflection of what you've done to us. Your attitude is from bad to worst. I bet, you dont even realised the changes to yourself. Even if any human being would point out the changes of your attitude, you wont accept it. And oh, stop rephrasing the same quote over and over again. Start to act like your age before someone else or a stranger point out your childish attitude. I'm not afraid of you cause I have GOD to turn to unlike you! :p

p/s: wake up from your fantasy and face the reality.

2010-09-19T10:55:00.000+08:00

Sorry to keep this blog dead without updates. Even tumblr, was dead.

Just so you know, last whole of last week were shooting week for Emative Production. If you guys saw my previous post together with the link, you people should know what it is like.

Well, i wont elaborate much about the shooting. Pictures will be upload over at FB and Emative blog. Shooting done left with editing.

Apart from that, im looking forward for my story which Siew Lian's group is working on. Make sure it's gonna be good hor ^^

Done with raya visiting and somehow, the mood of Raya is no longer feel. So, dont me ask me out okay? Chey~ Haha.

Okay what else shall I update??

That's all I guess.

2010-09-14T21:19:00.006+08:00

Do Visit! ((:

E'MATIVE

my blog will be dead for the mean time.

Salam Lebaran 2010.

2010-09-10T21:07:00.002+08:00

To all Muslims, Selamat Hari Raya. To those whom know me, may my sin be forgiven (:
Semoga kita bertemu bulan Ramadan pada tahun akan datang. Insya-allah.

end of Aug.

2010-08-31T17:54:00.003+08:00

Went over to Fuchun Sec just now, since were dismissed at early timing. Mdm Mardiana were shocked to see me & Marly there. Last year, didn't make it so, this year, we made it happened. Hee.

Anyway, big apologizes to Yan and the rest for not making up breakfast today. Here's the reason - I'll be having my shooting next week, and big possibilities will be shooting till night, which that means, no breakfast with family and whatsmore it's the last week of Ramadan. So, I'm making up this week for next week, breakfast. So sorry, okay? Meet you guys, during Raya (I think?) Hope you guys understand.

2010-08-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

But now, it's time to face the truth. I will never be with you.

YOG updates.

2010-08-27T13:06:00.003+08:00

Working for two weeks with an easy cash pay, ain't that easy as I thought. It's a great working experience for me, since this is my first time working. I won't elaborate much on what happened in that two weeks. Briefly, it was tiring but yet fun plus it was fasting month and it helps me to kill time till break fast. Thanks Jimmy and Ivy for guiding me all along my working days. I have a hard time communicating with my circle of friends, which this means, time to find a Chinese boyfriend. Chey fake~ :P

Nurul was my new friend for the two weeks & meeting her was a pleasure (: I had two weeks of sleepless night, and eyebags, not to forget. Oh, thanks Marly, for being there for me for on the first few days. Uhh, once pay is in, shooooooping~~ Haha! Let's make a shopping list, shall we? ^^ psst, I'm buying my wants instead of my needs. Hee. Obviously, I won't spend every bits of it, I'll have some for rainy days. Oh, one thing for sure, I'm gonna miss my times during YOG 2010 even though, mine is not as fun as others, I'm still proud of it ((:

Monday is back to school. Getting ready for FYP. Gah~ Hari Raya, coming in two weeks or sort. Excited for it? :D Anyway, you may find pictures of YOG at FB, credits to Nurul.

Update more than enough, after some time of privating it.

p/s: I lost track of K-pops.

2010-08-12T08:35:00.002+08:00

Blog's gonna be dead for the mean time. Will be busy with YOG. Meanwhile, have a pleasant holiday and Ramadhan to my readers (:

2010-08-09T16:46:00.003+08:00

Ramadhan is coming a days time & I'm all excited for it. Don't ask me why eh :P Partically, I'll be busy with YOG for the next two weeks and not forgetting projects too. God~ Time to jumble up my time. So, pardon me if not updating this blog. Anything, see my twitter :D

45th.

2010-08-09T14:35:00.001+08:00

Happy 45th Birthday, Singapore!
&
Happy Birthday to you! ^ ^

2010-08-08T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hana : In Singapore, CD Rama. At Korea, CD butterfly.
Syafs : EH?
Hana & me : -__-

& the best part is when we re-cap back those funny part we had in school.

cute.

2010-08-08T17:03:00.002+08:00

boyf♥ :P

2010-08-07T21:38:00.001+08:00

2010-08-07T21:31:00.001+08:00

it always played in my mind.

2010-08-06T21:19:00.002+08:00

& I think, I saw you just now :(

2010-08-06T21:00:00.001+08:00

shall we be friends, F ? ;)

2010-08-06T20:56:00.001+08:00

what if..

2010-08-05T21:54:00.003+08:00

& I wonder, how'll the both of us react if we happen to bump into each other coincidencely?

today is loved.

2010-08-04T21:44:00.003+08:00

Compared to yesterday, today was much more better! I've put a smile on my face since the first thing in the morning till the end of the day. I've had my laughed with my beloved classmates and they never failed to bring me joy. Thanks people for always colouring up my day, every single day (:

Just so you know, today marks the one month of schooling at the new college. In the first moment, it was hard to get use to the new environment and strangers around you, but after sometime, you doesn't seems to care about it at all and started to ignore everything. That's what I've been doing. The best part, is when, you saw your eye-candy! Woo~ Hearts will beat faster than usual :D & that's where, you called ; inspiration. Well even though the school is big, I'll keep on seeing my eye-candy. Let's say, almost like everyday. Be jealous eh Syafs? :P Okay, stop it. Haha. Meeting up with old mates, reminds me back in secondary school.

Talking about lessons, frankly speaking, I still don't know what lesson I'm having. PPP and VDP but both seems to be the same. With the same classroom, same teacher and the same thing you've been doing every single day - paperwork! So, don't bother asking me what lesson I'm having.

Uh, finally realising that I'm having a proper post today. Heh.

p/s: maybe, I deserve someone better than you.

bad august.

2010-08-03T20:03:00.002+08:00

I've been having a glum face since yesterday. It seems like August, isn't my month to start with. Probably, when Ramadhan comes, I'll be able to control it. Ya Allah, tenangkanlah hatiku ini. I'm trying not to throw out my temper to the innocent ones, around me. I need my happy pills when I'm in this emotion.

please dont.

2010-08-02T20:26:00.002+08:00

out of sudden, my body is weak the whole of today's day but I managed to be active with my fellow mates. I don't wish to fall sick at this moment of time. there's like lots of things need to be settled and I wanna stay strong! I prefer having flu or cough rather than having fever. shall have my panadol and supplements not to forget plain water (:

2010-08-01T20:38:00.002+08:00

it's such a bad start of August. there's no sun today & my school shoes ain't dry and I have no shoes for school tomorrow. Well, except for one, but that is when I have to wear uniform, which I, let's say, hate to wear it. Gah~ Secondly, something that made me kind of guilt. I don't know why. I'll know the overcome if I told the truth. I'm left with no choice but to just keep it silent. :'(

2010-08-01T16:59:00.002+08:00

time slows down,
whenever you're around.
I can feel my heart,
it's beating in my chest.
can you feel it?
I can't put this down.

august first.

2010-08-01T13:29:00.002+08:00

Since today is the first of August, I'll make a proper post, which I've not been having for so long. I don't know how I should describe my life now. What matters now, is to live life to the fullest (: As for school ; school has been manageable. Projects all the way till the end of year. Hoping to make it. Even if I can't make it to poly, well, at the very least, to Higher Nitec will do. Insya-allah (:

Just so you know, Ramadhan is coming soon in how many days to come. Somehow, I can't wait for the month, don't ask me why. It's just the feeling. But not to worry, there's assignments and jobs to do, so as to kill time and by the end of time, it's Syawal. Okay, not to rush for Raya. Heh.

All right, I'm out of stories.

p/s: your approaching is all im wishing for.

2010-07-31T14:36:00.002+08:00

2010-07-30T20:08:00.001+08:00

Much look alike? Okay, maybe, just their eyes. See, told ya that I like guys with small eyes :D

small eyes.

2010-07-30T16:53:00.006+08:00

Let's say, I like guys with small eyes when he smiles/laugh ^ ^

2010-07-29T22:01:00.001+08:00

I like you , can? *what a question to ask*

shirah&feeqa

2010-07-29T21:14:00.002+08:00

a short meet up with Shirah & Feeqa just now. Even though, it was for just awhile, we managed to exchange stories. friends, boyfriends, school bla bla. all the best for Shirah's O & Feeqa's upcoming school! ^ ^ PSST, badan die hot! XD

2010-07-28T19:29:00.001+08:00

2010-07-28T18:35:00.002+08:00

The school has been cursed or what? GRR~ but on the other hand, met my old secondary mates ^ ^ have to careful, the next time.

2010-07-28T18:32:00.002+08:00

Attended an event called Global Programme Education, held at ITE Simei, earlier on. Wore traditional clothes & my legs are aching now cause of the high-heels and long standing.

2010-07-27T20:35:00.003+08:00

the place is huge and big. of all people, why must I always see you? *doing Wooyoung's reaction*

2010-07-26T20:35:00.000+08:00

I just love Sandara's hair~ & Taeyang...no comment ^ ^

2010-07-26T20:26:00.000+08:00

" baby baby baby, baby boo~"

2010-07-26T20:22:00.001+08:00

2010-07-25T22:02:00.002+08:00

& it can drive you mad too!

2010-07-24T21:02:00.001+08:00

"you wanna see me fall right?
like a candle, on a windy night.
just watch me do this, take a breath hold tight
I'm never going down without a fight!"

2010-07-24T14:47:00.003+08:00

idontlikeyou,causeyouleftmewithyoursweetwords.&thatswhyiignoredyou.
idontlikeyou,causeyouaccusedme,whenyoudontevenknowaboutthetruth.&thatswhyiignoredyou.
idontlikeyou,causeibetyouwantedrevengewhichiwillneverfallforyourtrap.&thatswhyiignoredyou.
idontlikeyou,causeyouarejusttoodumbtoomakeyourowndecision.&thatswhyiignoredyou.

& i d o n ' t w a n t t o e n d u p b e i n g l i k e y o u .

2010-07-24T12:44:00.002+08:00

Aww.. Cute!

2010-07-24T12:31:00.001+08:00

2010-07-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

I'll prove it.

2010-07-23T21:27:00.001+08:00

a dream about you~

2010-07-23T20:55:00.002+08:00

why don't you just abandon me? will that make your life easier and peaceful, without me? :'( can't you stop making like I'm the bad one here?

2010-07-23T20:49:00.003+08:00

you leave me breathless, the way you look at me.

i cant.

2010-07-22T22:02:00.002+08:00

but I can't like you :(

she said.

2010-07-22T21:16:00.001+08:00

- Syafs.

movie date.

2010-07-22T18:16:00.004+08:00

a movie date with her after school, since class ended early. we get the best seat, eh? :D ratings 5/5. worth your money ;)

hurt.

2010-07-20T20:20:00.003+08:00

i felt so hurt, really hurt. after all that we've been through together, let it be in happiness or sadness, i dont deserve this treatment back from you. seriously. i've poured out all of my trust in you, and is this what i get in return? no, i dont deserve this. you stabbed me in the back, and yet can still pretend about it. you've been nice with me, but behind, only God knows how you react. all this while, i've been such a fool to you. i've finally realised it. how dumb of me, to tell you every problems that i had, when by right, you cant be trusted! how dumb of me! i dont want to hate you, cause i'll know the consequences, if i ever take action & spout out everything that i've bottled up, all this while. i'm sick and tired of these situation. what do you gain from that stupid, dumb, idiot behaviour of yours? i'm really disappointed in you. really disappointed.

& all i have to do, is to endure and put on my mask; fake smile, whenever there's you.

2010-07-19T20:36:00.001+08:00

Somehow, I called out your name by accident, when supposingly, I'm suppose to call for someone's else. Silly me~

2010-07-19T20:35:00.001+08:00

2010-07-19T20:23:00.003+08:00

why must you always appear?! WAE?! :'(

If I have a lover

2010-07-19T20:11:00.001+08:00

read the English sub. Yoseob♥

2010-07-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

get you out off my head!

2010-07-18T13:22:00.001+08:00

SHAMELESS , HYPOCRITES , LOSER , COWARD!

2010-07-18T13:09:00.001+08:00

" I'll be mean if you're mean to me. "

2010-07-17T21:47:00.001+08:00

2010-07-17T21:42:00.001+08:00

" Why would I bother to look at you, when by right, you don't look at me? ..or don't remember me? "

IF.

2010-07-17T16:16:00.001+08:00

back.

2010-07-16T13:17:00.002+08:00

Pardon me, for no updating this blog of mine. I know, it's not gonna be dead. Like what mates have been saying, this month, gonna have pack/tight schedule. Projects here & there. Presentation and so on.

Last four days, have been busy and everyone were rushing with their assignments and presentation. Presentation starts out with nervous and ends with a relief. Second last to present but still, thanks for the listening ears (: Sleepless nights and mundane mornings. I'll not be updating blog like how I used to be. Just as you know, I only school for four days which left me of three days to update this blog, provided I'm not busy. Not promise.

Okay, enough of about school.

to A, stop putting your fake mask, infront of me. stop pretending that you're innocent, when by right, you're not. you may say different things infront me, but who knows, you may double your words behind me. if you're gonna be two-faced, at least make one of them pretty.

to B, what's your motive of making up stories? are you trying to get more attention or what? if you want to make up stories, at least make it realistic. not somekind of snake and ladder games.

to C, shame on you. that's not the way for revenge. you're such a coward and you have the guts to ask about the incident. pretending to ask about the problem. it's obviously, your doing. try to own up and i bet, you'll be the first to feel my slap on that ugly face of yours. this is just the beginning, dont be too excited about your 'successful' revenge. karma will hit you back, and that's where i'll be laughing at you back. silence is the best response to a fool. and that fool is you.

p/s: i must stop seeing you around.

2010-07-11T16:43:00.001+08:00

facts.

2010-07-11T14:10:00.001+08:00

A said by Ryeowook. Kindda agree (:

I wish.

2010-07-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

I've always wished that, when the orange light blink, it was your name, starting the conversation. Oh well...

all day long.

2010-07-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

It's been almost one week school started & it seems like a month/year to me. Long way to go.

HAHA~

2010-07-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

This reminds me of Syafs :D

Me: Uh tu seluar baru.
Arep: Tak lawa.
Me: Tak boleh buat untuk shooting. Nanti ade line-line.
Syafs: Beh nanti kene lock.
( Arep & me looking at each other) : Ape yg lock?

Cute uh Syafs XD

:D

2010-07-10T16:40:00.002+08:00

HAHA~ Depends, what type of guys. If too nerdy, can relax one corner :P

it's all about trust.

2010-07-10T16:37:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, your stories can't be trust anymore.